Kat

Bananasaur?

Nov 13, 2012 | | 2 comments

If I don’t write it down I’ll forget it… Silly as this is… Kat showed up in my dreams last night. She was about 5 or 6 years old. I was sitting beside her bed. She was on the bed on her knees with her head hanging down over the side. She asked me to […more]

Voting for Kat

Nov 7, 2012 | | Say something

I value quiet. I value thoughtful, heartfelt words whether I agree with them or not. I abhor the noise of commercials on TV or radio.  When I watch network TV, which is rare, I skip the commercials. I rarely listen to commercial radio. So I haven’t seen any political ads. None! BUT… I do read […more]

The Pause Thing

Oct 16, 2012 | | 4 comments

This grieving process is so strange, so foreign to me. Much of the time, I just feel hollow… empty… Jeanie said it felt like someone drilled a hole in her and sucked out all the life energy. I feel that too. It is as if my blood is water.  Do not get me wrong. It […more]

Finding Tag

Oct 7, 2012 | | 6 comments

We didn’t make a grand public announcement, but sometime the week after Kat died (9/23), her kitty Tag went missing. We were not happy about it, but having never owned a cat, we relied on the word of the “cat people” in our lives. We trusted them that he had found a good hiding place […more]

The Room Built With Love

Sep 20, 2012 | | 6 comments

In order to setup this story, I offer this extremely abbreviated version of a very long and arduous journey: Our youngest daughter, Kat, has been fighting cancer for the last year and a half. If you want to know more about that journey, click here. Last week, in the hospital, Kat’s legs and feet began […more]

Cancer

Sep 10, 2012 | | 2 comments

Cancer. Becoming harder each day to push back the inevitable pressures of life; the pressures common to us all. This awful disease unsatisfied with being compartmentalized. Breaking all barriers, demanding its own and everything else. A cancer of attention, a cancer of emotion taking every spare breath, every free moment. Cancer itself annoyed at the […more]

Tick Tock

Jun 10, 2012 | | 2 comments

Life goes on one moment following another. The predictable rhythm of the second hand, the rising & setting sun, the seasons… Tick, Tock, tick, tock… lulls us to sleep. When asked how we are doing, we automatically answer, “Same old thing. New day.” Then something happens that shakes our world to the core. Last Friday […more]

Wish I Didn’t Know That

Apr 1, 2012 | | 5 comments

If I had only known how long it would take me to finish painting the bathroom I would never have started it that day. The “popcorn” ceilings in my house are in horrible shape and cannot easily be painted. I knew they just need to be scraped off and finished flat, but was afraid it […more]

Marrow Sucking

Mar 2, 2012 | | 2 comments

I am sitting in the lobby at Duke Hospital writing this on my droid. Upstairs the best medical staff on the planet are pumping poison into my daughter to kill this awful cancer. I was planning to work remotely today, but forgot to bring my laptop power cord. So it has become a vacation day. […more]

Home

Jul 2, 2011 | | 4 comments

This song was on my mind today. Diana Ross sang it as Dorothy in The Wiz. I cried watching this video on Youtube. I imagine my friends watching the video and wondering if I have gone completely over the edge. I can only respond that I am particularly emotional these days.  Having my family all […more]